Dear Monnae,
Can I even talk to you anymore?
Or will you just be dragged away?
How many times have I tried to start a conversation?
How many times have you not heard me?
How many times have I sung a sad song to myself?
How much have you ever heard?
Why must you be so dense to not realize these feelings?
No, this isn't a love confession.
Do you not notice me behind you?
Has all hope turned into despair?
I believe, but in the corner of my mind,
There is a shadow of uneasiness.
I've shouted out my wish and prayers,
But my voice never reaches.
I feel as if because we're so distant,
The most unlikeliest ones are comforting me.
I felt happy to play "Catch" in the gym during free time.
With Mahiya, Rani, and Jan.
No, I don't love Jan.
Think that again and you're being pinched until you bleed.
Your attention is on something else.
You don't show the attributes of a best friend to me anymore.
You show them to someone else instead.
You are happy with them instead.
If you can't see my feelings,
I'll just give them to someone else who understands.
I won't show you "Dear You" until you put the video in my Edmodo backpack.
When you listen to the song, and most importantly, the lyrics, will you understand?
An even better one is "Dear You -Hope-".
And even "Dear You -Kind-".
If I would relate to each of these "Dear You"s...
"Dear You -Cry-" would be from me to Steve...
Speaking of Steve...
That day of which I refused to see you after school, I decided to go where Steve goes.
He noticed that I was walking along with him.
He realized that I was there.
Steve showed me humor, smiles, and life.
Steve makes everything bad that happened earlier, just a dream.
It makes me sad to have to depart from him.
But it makes me happy that I have a memory of our last conversation.
The day before spring break, I got to talk to him.
If it weren't for Steve, I would still be inside of my antisocial shell.
Every time I turn around, you're being dragged away by someone else.
I understand if you're making new friends.
I would be happy for you.
I don't want to be rude, so if someone else has you in a 20 min. conversation, I won't but in.
If you're sick and tired of this, I understand.
But just hear me out. I don't feel as if we a connection anymore.
You can try to apologize.
You can try to say that it was a misunderstanding.
You can say that I'm stupid for believing that you're best friends with someone else.
You can say that you're still my best friend.
But will it have any effect?
Will I believe you?
Who knows, you might be able to have me back.
You might be able to make me turn to you.
But what if I don't?
What if I just reject you?
If you're wondering why I didn't go to your locker after school,
Then you must be so dense that I would call you "stupid" instead.
I thought that you wouldn't even notice me.
Or you were probably already dragged away.
Will you try to make up for this?
Will you cry for once?
Word of God knows, you probably don't even feel the message of this yet.
Are you still my best friend? Or do you belong with someone else?
-Lien
Or will you just be dragged away?
How many times have I tried to start a conversation?
How many times have you not heard me?
How many times have I sung a sad song to myself?
How much have you ever heard?
Why must you be so dense to not realize these feelings?
No, this isn't a love confession.
Do you not notice me behind you?
Has all hope turned into despair?
I believe, but in the corner of my mind,
There is a shadow of uneasiness.
I've shouted out my wish and prayers,
But my voice never reaches.
I feel as if because we're so distant,
The most unlikeliest ones are comforting me.
I felt happy to play "Catch" in the gym during free time.
With Mahiya, Rani, and Jan.
No, I don't love Jan.
Think that again and you're being pinched until you bleed.
Your attention is on something else.
You don't show the attributes of a best friend to me anymore.
You show them to someone else instead.
You are happy with them instead.
If you can't see my feelings,
I'll just give them to someone else who understands.
I won't show you "Dear You" until you put the video in my Edmodo backpack.
When you listen to the song, and most importantly, the lyrics, will you understand?
An even better one is "Dear You -Hope-".
And even "Dear You -Kind-".
If I would relate to each of these "Dear You"s...
"Dear You -Cry-" would be from me to Steve...
Speaking of Steve...
That day of which I refused to see you after school, I decided to go where Steve goes.
He noticed that I was walking along with him.
He realized that I was there.
Steve showed me humor, smiles, and life.
Steve makes everything bad that happened earlier, just a dream.
It makes me sad to have to depart from him.
But it makes me happy that I have a memory of our last conversation.
The day before spring break, I got to talk to him.
If it weren't for Steve, I would still be inside of my antisocial shell.
Every time I turn around, you're being dragged away by someone else.
I understand if you're making new friends.
I would be happy for you.
I don't want to be rude, so if someone else has you in a 20 min. conversation, I won't but in.
If you're sick and tired of this, I understand.
But just hear me out. I don't feel as if we a connection anymore.
You can try to apologize.
You can try to say that it was a misunderstanding.
You can say that I'm stupid for believing that you're best friends with someone else.
You can say that you're still my best friend.
But will it have any effect?
Will I believe you?
Who knows, you might be able to have me back.
You might be able to make me turn to you.
But what if I don't?
What if I just reject you?
If you're wondering why I didn't go to your locker after school,
Then you must be so dense that I would call you "stupid" instead.
I thought that you wouldn't even notice me.
Or you were probably already dragged away.
Will you try to make up for this?
Will you cry for once?
Word of God knows, you probably don't even feel the message of this yet.
Are you still my best friend? Or do you belong with someone else?
-Lien